Try to convince myself...
 

Saw a student in her professor's office today. She was asking the professor for recalculating her grade from last term. She succeed and got an A at the end. Then I told myself that next time I should be more proactive as her. Not only for grades, but also for my own life.

 

Met a friend later and knew one of my prof curved down everyone's grade by 16 points...That explained why I didn't get a grade I expected. I've never asked and I would not know that if I didn't talk that with my friend. And actually that is the course I was thinking about when I met the student this afternoon.

 

Once, I was another type of student, totally different from whom I am right now. I asked questions even after I did the exams. I went to teachers' offices regularly somehow. Someday, I tried to convince everyone that I don't really care. But do I really don't care?

 

So...what is important? What should be important actually?

 

Grade? Attitude? Or something else?

 

Will I final get what I want? Is the process still very important? Or maybe I don't even care about the result?

 

Lost...feels bad...

 

Hopefully, everything is going to be fine...